i wanted it so bad tonight. to let go of this discipline i've learned [somewhat] against my own will. i crave the point filled with a liquid so crystal clear.
how can i go on acting the part of clean when i have already been tainted?
i fought her off. maybe won this battle, though the war is far from over. this is eternal. a never-ending fight for the future.
and she has allies of many colors. brown strives to conquer me as well. he had me down not long ago. my strength was lost and he had taken my weapons. i could only run. though still he stands before me.
how can i go on acting victorious when my life is already bought?
1:40 a.m. - Sunday, Jun. 19, 2005
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